Father, show me what I don’t see I hear their plea, but I miss their need I have been blind… change me May my mind be open as I embrace the broken Help me not to plan, but be lead by Your sovereign hand As I aim to rescue… don’t let me drown for my own thoughts may pull me down May my goal be for their complete restoration rather than temporary imitation of my salvation Instead of reinventing their wheel… let me rest upon the truth You reveal May I not merely bring another tourniquet that stops the bleeding until volunteers quit I pray You give me strength to dig for the root rather than being satisfied with picking the problem fruit Father, show me what I don’t see

I wrote this poem while at Gateway. It is my prayer. The words were inspired by a song called "Give Me Your Eyes" by Brandon Heath. Be Blessed!

Snorkeling with Hansel & Gretel

The sun cast its warm rays upon my face as I sat relaxing on the sandy, white beach. The crystal clear, teal, ocean water of the Caribbean danced in front of me. It was a beautiful day, a perfect day. After a busy week of loving and hugging the Dominican children, it was beach time. Some of my friends sat quietly reading their books; others were enjoying playing tourist and were bargaining for some good deals with the locals. I had just drifted off into a magical sleep when my friend, Jesse, startled me and woke me up. He had learned that for an “amazing price of $5 USD” we could rent snorkeling gear. He had convinced one person to join him, but he was certain I needed to partake in the adventure, too. I was entirely content sitting on my ample derriere soaking up the sun. There was no possibility that I wanted to snorkel even for the “amazing price of $5 USD!” In my head, I went through all the reasons for why I didn’t want to join the snorkeling pair. The biggest reason: I AM A FRAID OF WATER! Yes, I live on a ship, on the water, but when I am inside the ship, I don’t know I am on the water, so that is beside the point. But along with being terrified of water, I am equally afraid of what may be swimming around me. I just imagine that as my body floats on the service of the water, there are huge sharks, sting rays, and clown fish with crazy teeth just hoping for a snack of “white meat.” There was no chance I wanted to actually stick my head in the water and stare the scary fish in the face as they chewed on my toes! I haven’t even mentioned my fear of drowning and the fact that I don’t even like to eat fish, why would I want to swim with them? After reciting in my head the top 100 reasons why I never would snorkel, I realized Jesse was still staring at me and waiting for me to share his enthusiasm about the chance for another adventure! I politely reminded him that I had eye surgery 6 weeks earlier and “I shouldn’t stick my eyes in the water” (the least of my worries, but most socially acceptable excuse). Jesse is a persistent little punk to say the least and with the assurance that our retired marine, super athletic, friend, Tracy, would coach me through the entire process, I decided it was the perfect day to conquer some of my fears. We stood in the refreshing water and I attempted to get my flippers on. I took more than 5 minutes to don my flippers and I am certain Tracy didn’t know what she was getting into. Jesse swam ahead saying he would meet us at the reef. I slowly swam in the clear, blue water toward the reef and my “coach” asked me if I wanted to put my mask on and look in the water. I said, “Not a chance.” We then decided it would actually be better for me to get the hang of swimming with the flippers on before I added another new concept to my adventure. Apparently, I don’t have the best swimming form and with the way I was flapping my wings and feet, I would have scared away all ocean life that was near. Once I was able to maintain a proper, gentle float and paddle in the water it was time for skill number two; putting on my snorkel mask and learning to breathe with it. It took no small amount of convincing for me to venture putting on the mask and mouth piece. While afloat and a fair distance from shore, I realized the masks in the Dominican aren’t sterilized and I didn’t know how many other people had sucked on the mouth piece I now held in my hands. Tracy convinced me that since we were in salt water; it was like cleaning the mouth piece with Normal Saline, just like I would on a hospital ward. I thought that logic was slightly faulty and I secretly wished I had an alcohol swab or autoclave to boil the germ infested thing, but no luck, I took a deep breath and placed the breathing device in my mouth. At this point, we were nearing the reef and I could see my friend, Jesse, bobbing up and down with excitement each time he emerged from the water. He made some smart remark like “it’s about time you showed up and good thing you stopped your floundering, you would scare the fish!” I gave it back to him and yelled, “Pipe down, I am working on conquering years of fear, you can show a little patience and you invited me!” I also reminded him that he better not make an swift movements and that I would KILL him if he dropped pieces of fish food near me (the rental place gives bottles of bread to customers to, which they can use to draw the fish into view)! If I worked up the nerve to stick my head in the water I didn’t want to touch the fish! After some serious Lamaze breathing, I figured out I could actually breathe with my mask on and I put my head into the water. A whole new, incredibly, wet world was in front of me. It freaked me out! I rapidly pulled my head out of the water, ripped my mask off, and coughed up a lung. My mask didn’t fit correctly. Tracy kindly, switched masks with me and things improved. I worked up the courage to stick my head into the water a few times. Tracy would find something interesting, like an actual piece of the reef that was still alive (because stupid tourists have touched and stood on the reef, so the majority of it is dead) and then I would put my face in to look, but that was it. I also saw a sea urchin, some beautiful colorful fish, and a star fish! My friends saw tons of creatures, but I was content to bob in the water, with my head above the water, as long as my friends came back to the surface every 45 seconds to check on me. It was nearing time to return our rental gear and I was going under for a few more looks. I exhaled and took a deep breath. I stuck my head under the water and much to my surprise there were fish ALL around me. They were so close. I screamed! Some were touching me. Unlike most tourists; I was not impressed. I started kicking and swimming away as fast as I could. I then looked over my shoulder to see Jesse snickering and laughing his head off. That little punk friend of mine was playing his own little game of Hansel and Gretel. While I was innocently bobbing around in the ocean water he had been swimming around me under water and had spread a layer of bread crumbs all around me in a circle and the fish had come to eat the bread! The little Hansel and Gretel trick was enough for me. I swam back to shore and turned in my snorkel gear. Tracy and Jesse followed laughing and laughing. Weeks after the experience and now that my lungs are free of all the ocean water I swallowed, I can say Tracy was such a champ to put up with me in the face of my fears. I wouldn’t have completed my snorkel adventure without Tracy’s encouragement and as for Jesse…humm…my current challenge is resisting the temptation to get even with him… Just kidding… I thank God for friends that challenge me to grow and I am so thankful that God is with us whether we are facing small fears or big fears. He is always there! May you know that truth today!

Life & Death

Although many of us hate to think about it; life is short. Each day we are given is a gift. We do not know the hour or time our lives will end. One day you may be remembering the “good old days” when you used to cut grass for the old lady from church. The next day you hear death snatched her, your grandmotherly figure, away before you got to tell her how important she was to you. Or consider this, a humble, servant hearted, middle-aged father of 12; gone in the blink of an eye. Death is not prejudice and no matter how hard we try to fight it; death is a part of life. Death is the only certain thing in life, but still it surprises us. And somehow we still try to convince ourselves that we can escape it with the right formula. Suppose I quit my job, move to Africa, and serve the poor. Can my life then be free from the pain and hurt that death brings? No. She came seeking “hope and healing.” Sure, her surgery was risky, but we are trained professionals. She was a middle-aged mother, it couldn’t have been “her time,” but it was. What did we do wrong? What if we had gotten there sooner? What if we would have had more advanced technology? The “what ifs” could go on forever, reality; she is gone. What about the wee babe, merely four months old. The babe was wrapped tight, but breathing softly while being held closely by a loving African mama. The hospital crew member escorted the pair into the ship to wait in line to see the doctor. While in the cargo hold (patient waiting room), death came and snatched that precious babe away from its young, loving mother. Why? How? What? Can’t we be immune from the horror of death? What about the young life waiting in line at another screening location, why them? How was it that when we scanned the room moments earlier, all appeared okay? Why did the tumor win when help was so close? With a heavy heart and mind plagued with the intensity of losing three patients in one week, I run around the hospital ward getting ready for one of the most exciting events in the lives of our VVF patients: the “Dress Ceremony.” When our patients have successfully recovered from surgery it is something to celebrate. My job as VVF Co-Coordinator includes helping prepare the women for their dress ceremony. Our VVF women come to the ship smelly, constantly soaked in urine, plagued with frequent infections, without work, homeless, alone, and “dead.” After surgery they are “reborn” and given another chance at life. To celebrate we give each healed woman a beautiful, traditional African dress during a special ceremony in their honor (see photo). The women have a chance to share their personal stories and my patients that wouldn’t smile upon arrival to the ship now dance like teenagers to the sound of the conga drums banging in the corner of the ward. Their excitement is palpable and songs burst forth throughout the hospital. One lady stands and shares, “I came with tears… I go home with joy!” Another woman, who had been leaking urine for over ten years, timidly admits, “I tried EVERYTHING; I even went to the fetish priest, but he couldn’t help me, but HERE I found help. No more witchdoctors they just take my money. I will keep my money and eat my chicken… no more sacrifices!” The intensity of life here is unreal. I could go home and ignore it all, but would that really change anything? No; life begins and life ends, no matter where we are. I grieve. I celebrate. No matter the pain and confusion my heart may feel, it is my pleasure to celebrate and grieve with my patients. I have no doubt that life truly is a gift and for the time being my challenge comes with learning how to open that gift and enjoy the “present.”

My World is Rocking

My world is rocking; mentally, spiritually, physically, and literally. As I sit here in my new cabin, the Mercy Ship, which I call my home, is gently swaying back and forth; left, then right, left, and then right. My stomach threatens to revolt against the ever so gentle, but constant movement. The ship did not move this much in Liberia, I am certain of it! The rocking ship is only one of the differences I am encountering as I have returned to my “home” and in far too many ways; I reminded I am “home,” but my home has changed. The biggest difference, I am not in Liberia anymore. The ship has moved to Benin, West Africa, a country boarded by Togo, to the west, and Nigeria to the east. I will be honest with you; I miss Liberia. But, for the next 10 months, Benin is my home. My arrival to Benin has given me the chance for new adventures and new challenges. Challenge number one, my new role and job on the ship. While I was in Texas, the Ward Supervisor from the ship emailed me and offered me the position of co-coordinating the care of our Vesico-Vaginal Fistula (VVF) patients. VVF patients are women who have experienced tragic pregnancies causing intense damage of their internal anatomy and plumbing causing them to constantly leak and drip urine. As you can imagine, these women smell horrific and they are often oppressed and considered “dead” to society. Because of limited education and access to healthcare, there are many young women suffering from this horrible condition. The good news, we can help, and that is what we are doing. I am sharing the role of coordinating the care for these precious broken women. When I arrived on the ship, two nurses were sharing the coordinator role, but one of them is leaving this week. So, in my jetlagged state, I am assuming the position of a sponge; soaking up all the knowledge I can before my trainer leaves. It has proven to be interesting. I am starting to get the hang of things, but there is still so much to learn. I am basically sharing the role of tracking the surgical process and care of our VVF patients from admission to discharge from the hospital. I make rounds with the physician every morning, we discuss the plan of care for the day, I write doctor’s orders, I monitor the progress of our patients, and I do everything else in between. I share a pager with my Norwegian colleague and one of us is on call 24-hours a day. I answer questions from the ward nurses about the care of our patients, run back and forth from the pharmacy, track statistics, and come up with outrageous, creative ways to solve problems without modern supplies. The title to my job would imply that I know something about what I am doing. I am not so certain that is the truth at this point, but I have had experience in urology and gynecology surgical nursing and I cared for the VVF patients for almost 1.5 months straight in Liberia. Hopefully, the rest will come. Challenge number two; language. The official language in Benin is French. I don’t speak French and if I did, I am not so sure it would help considering some sources report there are around 51 languages in Benin and possibly 162 dialects. It is an incredible challenge to communicate with my patients. We have translators on the ward, but there are so many languages in Benin, it is impossible to always have a translator that can communicate with every patient we currently have admitted. It is time consuming and often comical trying to get answers to simple questions that nurses love, such as, “did you poop today?” Picture this process. I speak English to a French translator. She speaks to a translator who speaks French and a tribal language. The translator that speaks the tribal language talks to a patient who speaks the same tribal language and the tribal dialect of the patient I am trying to communicate with. My question is finally asked to the patient I am caring for and then the answer attempts to get back to me in one piece. It is worse than a 6th grade game of “telephone tag.” Worse yet, every time I try to speak to someone, Spanish words come out, because my only foreign language is Spanish and any time I hear a foreign language, my brain automatically spits out Spanish! Yikes! Oh, you will never hear me say my life is boring! Are there more challenges in my life? You better believe it… Maybe I should say “adventures” instead of “challenges.” Yes, let’s put a positive twist on the matter… Adventure number three; we are terribly short of ward nurses and other medical staff. Therefore, I will not be able to dedicate my time solely to the VVF co-coordinator role. I am needed on the ward and I am needed as a charge nurse. Umm… I am going to fit in my VVF co-coordinator role, do two or three refresher shifts as a ward nurse, and then three training shifts to learn the role of charge nurse for the ward. At that point I will balance VVF co-coordinator, ward nurse, and charge nurse. I think at this moment in time a good word to describe my feelings would be…. FREAKED OUT! Oh, but on a positive note… I am still a licensed nurse in New Hampshire! The details don’t matter, I have a nursing license! As I write, the ship continues to rock back and forth and my eyelids are getting heavy and beckoning me to surrender to sweet sleep. Well, we hope the sleep is sweet; the air conditioner has been under repair since my return to the ship… It hasn’t been as cool as I would wish for. But if I can only have one of my recent 27th birthday wishes, I will endure the heat and continue to wish (pray) for strength, passion, and energy to carry on and trust in my powerful God as my life is rocking back and forth in so many ways.

Hotter than Hades- A Blog from the Past

Thick smoke came billowing from the structure. Flames danced about and the fire was getting hotter and bigger. The potential for serious damage was increasing. The brave firefighters, dressed in their heavy fire gear, entered the burning structure. The pair hit a wall of heat immediately upon entering the treacherous scene. The estimated temperature inside the flaming building was 500*-600* Fahrenheit. The two firefighters clung to the fire hose in their hands; their life line. Crouching to escape the heat, the courageous crew sprayed short intense bursts of water above the fire in hope of cooling the thermal heat layer that was intensifying, without creating too much steam. Next, they shot powerful floods of water at the base of the fire. Soon the fire was extinguished, but the building was still hotter than Hades and the smoke-steam combination made blinding conditions. The fire team slowly and carefully backed out of the room following their hose as a lifeline. Outside in the fresh air, the fire fighters ripped off their muggy face masks and collapsed on the ground. I sat on the ground, exhausted, over-heated, and quit proud of myself for surviving the first practical phase of the basic safety training; fire fighting. I couldn’t believe I just stared deadly fire in the face and I began to wonder what in the world I was doing as a nurse, dressed in fire gear? Then I remembered if the ship that I live on catches fire, it isn’t like we can call 911…we (the crew) are 911… I was training to be “911!” Before I had time to really catch my breath, I was pulling the pin out of a fire extinguisher and spraying down a simulated Class C, electrical fire. Next, I found myself with a team of others, trudging forward with a heavy hose, shooting a powerful spray of water toward a dangerous fire. One step after the other, working as a team, we made a water spray-shield to protect one of our team members from the heat of the fire as they shut off the fuel supply to the boiling, liquid, fire in front of us. Training exercise after exercise, continued all morning long. Sweating and physically drained, I made a mental note to thank all the firefighters I know for their hard work and service to the world. Finally, the long day on the fire field came to an end. My heart and mind raced with adrenaline after the intense day in the heat and heavy fire gear. I had successfully faced some incredible physical challenges and I was on my way to completion of the US Coast Guard’s Basic Safety Training Course. It was actually fun and an adventure, I dare say I would be willing to sweat, get scared out of my wits, and fight fire rather than sit in class any day! With one course down, only First Aid, CPR, and sea survival ahead!

Black Water

I hear the rooster crow outside my window far before I want to wake up, but the constant crowing reminds me that I better get out of bed if I want the luxary of electricity to help me find the toilet and sink in the bathroom. Maybe it would actually be better to not see the friendly little cockroaches on the floor in front of my feet! In the Dominican Republic, electricity is a luxary and is only on certain hours of the day.

Each day begins with a quick breakfast, conversation with God, and review of the plan for the day. We hop into the rental vehicle and pull onto the street in front of our hotel. We are greeted with a fresh, ocean breeze and view of the teal, blue, ocean water. Our group heads into a neighborhood of Puerto Plata, known as ¨Aguas Negras,¨ or ¨Black Water¨ ... A section of town no tourists visit, but a slum often littered with rubbish and dirty water. But nonetheless, a part of town in the process of an incredible reformation thanks to God and years of service from volunteer organizations, and Mercy Ship's crew. In a neighborhood previously viewed as destitute and hopeless there now shines a glimmer of hope. We are working with the local

¨Mother Teresa¨ of the Dominican Republic. An incredible woman of God with a passion and burden for her community and the lost. Through this woman and mentors from many volunteer agencies, there is now a club for boys and girls where they are taught life skills, to make a living, which helps them get off the street. There is a sewing business, a clinic, a church, and two schools.

We pull up to the school and there are numerous toothless grins to great us. The young milk chocolate and carmel children are our joy and focus. We have been given the gift of time to share and teach the children anything we wish. A few years ago, these children only dreamed of the opportunity to go to school. The local government refuses to enroll these children in the public schools because they have no papers, birth records, and they are extremely poor so...

¨they are none existent and not important.¨ Praise God, things have changed for these children and they are now able to attend school and learn. And more importantly, they learn the TRUTH! The school these children are attending was built by Mercy Ships!

Our assignment: teach the children about health and spiritual truths, teach in manner that the children will remember it and not only remember,¨once when I was small....some white people came to my school...¨ Easier said than done! With much thought, an infamous dental rap, in Spanish, was ressurected from the past. The main rap star, you better believe it... me... The best part, this past week, I taught 10 street boys, ages 11-14, the rap and they took over for me and were the star performers sharing the rap in the school we worked in this week! Dental and hand hygiene were topics of one teaching session, in the other sessions we focused on reminding the kids that each of them are unique and special in God's eyes. We helped the kids make little dolls out of pipe cleaners, yarn, and tongue depressors. We then shared with the kids that just like each of their dolls were created, they too were created and they are special.

For another class session, we took individual photos of each kid and printed them with colored ink and then the kids made picture frames for their photos. The kids loved all the activites! Many of my hours these past few weeks have been spent with the school children. I have hundreds of new little friends ages 4-8! The schools we worked in were very small and at times the noise level in the school was intense! Imagine twenty 3-4 year olds in a room 20x10 feet! Oh, my goodness. At one point all the little kids were screaming in Spanish and I was sitting on a little chair in the center of them. They were throwing balls at my head, singing songs, dancing, clapping, and attempting to saw my arms off with their fake chainsaw. Oh, the fun. I used some of my limited Spanish and said, "I'm scared!" The little kids would giggle and continue to "saw me apart limb-by-limb with the chainsaw." I have been up to many other things... but those stories will have to come later. For now, I enjoy the fact that my little lumberjack friends call my name and come running into my arms any time I walk into their community and cross over the cultural divide into the "Black Water."

Prayer Concern

Hello friends and family. Things have gotten a little better, but I have a prayer concern. I was just informed today that there is trouble with my nursing license. I thought everything was sorted out, but I guess not. It shouldn't be a problem, but the state of New Hampshire has some crazy rules that I don't understand. Apparently they would rather I lie and say that I still have a New Hampshire address instead of telling them the truth that I live in Africa and that I am using my parent's address for my mail. I don't know why I need an address in New Hampshire to have a New Hampshire license, but that doesn't matter. Either way, I need a license to practice nursing in Africa and I need this license before I get to Africa and more importantly I need it all sorted out before March 12th, my birthday, because if it isn't sorted out before then, things could get really expensive and messy. Prayers appreciated. Also, I have become mosquito meat... I just counted 26 bites on my right ankle alone... It isn't entirely pleasant. Love you guys.... I am okay, by the way.

Emotionally spent.. No better place to be...

Departure time was set for 0300 hours. I considered going to bed, but after finishing loads of laundry and stuffing my material possessions into a suit case once again, there was no point in going to bed. Instead, I chose to sit on the couch with a few of my Gateway friends and family. We met merely four weeks ago, but have shared a lifetime´s worth of experiences. Can it be time to say good-bye already?Quiet out of character for me, I looped my hands through my friend´s arm and just sat next to him. Barely saying a word, I just held onto his closeness. Maybe an attempt at wanting to feel like everything isn´t slipping away and changing again... Fast forward 14 hours. I stepped off an airplane and was greeted with a blast of hot, humid, island air; an oddly refreshing feeling. Bienviedas a la Dominican Republic! I cannot believe I am in another place again. The fast furry and travel of the past few months has finally caught up with me. In the last few months, I have been in Africa, Idaho, the dentist, New Hampshire, the hospital, Idaho, the dentist, Montana, the dentist, the dentist again, Louisiana, surgery, Texas, and now the Dominican Republic. I am having a small mental brain and heart attack. The emotions of the past few weeks, intensity of travel, and my health concerns have caused me to now ¨freak out.¨ I could use your prayers to say the least. I know God called me to change my plans and come to the Dominican to show love to these people, if only for a short time, but holy cow! My mind, body, energy, and soul are having trouble keeping up with the tasks God calls me to. I am confident that everything I do is in his strength, so I know it will be okay. There is no way anything I am doing here is in my strength because I feel so weak. I need the strength, desire, and passion to continue giving when I feel I have nothing left to give. I will keep you updated, but for now... I am in a new country, meeting new people, sleeping with cockroaches, emotionally spent, in need of prayer, and in the center of God´s will... no better place to be. I love all of you.

Travels

Off to the Dominican Republic... prayers appreciated. Will be in touch. Later!

A Slight Detour

Plans, most of you know what plans are. We plan for this and that to happen and we are often upset if things do not go as we originally planned. Over the last few years, I have learned to be flexible with my plans, knowing things could change at any moment. Why all this talk about plans? Well, I want you to know some of my plans are changing; I am taking a slight detour. In December, I was signed up to go on an optional trip to the Dominican Republic with the Gateway crew for a short Mercy Ministry Outreach before returning to Africa. When I was blessed with a second episode of kidney stones, I thought to myself, “What in the world am I doing? I am running around too much! I will be completely exhausted by the time I return to Africa and I will not have anything left to give!” I also thought, “My goodness, I cannot spread myself too thin. I still love the Spanish culture and language and what if I go to the Dominican and don’t want to leave and go back to Africa? And oh dear, I need to let go of Spanish and start focusing on French!” I discussed my concerns with trusted friends and family and decided to pull out of the trip. I emailed the Gateway leaders and told them to remove my name from the outreach list. I felt 100% at peace with my decision and was pleased with my decision until last week. Last week, the Outreach leader announced the group size to the Dominican was extremely small, there were still a few reserved tickets on the airplane, and there was one last chance to join the group. My heart fluttered inside and I began to wonder if I should join the team. I was feeling pulled in two directions. I knew if I went to the Dominican Republic, I would miss screening day in Benin. Screening is the official beginning to the Benin 2009 Outreach and it is the day when the multitudes come meet the Mercy Ships medical doctors and crew in hopes of getting a surgical appointment. It is an incredible day, so I am told. But, despite how amazing screening day is, I felt God was possibly telling me to go to the Dominican instead. I did not want to make this decision on my own, so I asked God to clearly show me what His will was. The day after the announcement was made in class, we had a scheduled 6 hour silent retreat. I decided I would seek God’s direction during the silent retreat. Our entire Gateway class left early in the morning and headed to a local national park. We set off in silence, agreeing to meet again in about 6 hours. The thought of being completely silent (and awake during that silence) for 6 hours freaked me out. I was frightened by the concept of silence. We were encouraged to leave all religious books and music behind. We could bring a notebook and our Bible, but that was it. Many of us in society and the church today report we cannot hear God and we have come to believe that he doesn’t talk to us anymore. But, in reality often there is so much NOISE around, even positive noise such as music and faith-based books that we cannot hear God speak, therefore a silent retreat. I walked around a beautiful lake and reflected on the beauty surrounding me. My head was full of thoughts and I kept saying, “Where are you God? I cannot hear you!” Then I realized that I needed to just be silent and wait. To make a long story short, I believe God confirmed in my heart that I should go to the Dominican. When I was praying and contemplating sticking to my original plan and going directly to Africa after Gateway, a scripture verse jumped into my head directing me otherwise. My main objection to going to the Dominican was my belief that I would not have the physical strength to handle another adventure before heading back to Africa. During the silent retreat, God assured me over and over that “when I am weak, He is strong” and “I can do all things through His strength!” Okay, so you may think I am a freak, but we already know that! Either way, I met God in a special way during the silent retreat and I am going to the Dominican Republic! I will be in Texas until February 14th. Then I fly to the Dominican Republic to share God’s love with the people living in Aguas Negras. We have the exciting opportunity to work with local churches, play with kids, hug babies, work on community developmental projects, and spend extended periods of time in the local schools teaching whatever we feel God lays on our hearts! I will return from the Dominican earlyMarch and fly to Benin, West Africa via Paris, mid-March ! Am I disappointed or frustrated that my plans have changed? No way! My main desire and plan in life is to be in the center of God’s will and for the time being, I believe His will is taking me on a trip to the Dominican Republic to love His people there and I am excited that I just might get the chance to hug and kiss some caramel babies on this detour.